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Post by Deleted on Aug 5, 2015 22:56:02 GMT -5
michael @herbalicious and I were hanging out at my house, watching stupid TV shows. I had just come back with a beer for myself and something for Alex when I heard a knock at the door. I looked at it in confusion, glancing at my fiance before going to answer it.
It was some man, and a little girl, maybe four or five, was standing there with him. He explained to me that this was my daughter, Haylee, who I had with an old ex. My face was white. Her mother had died in a work accident, and now I had custody over her.
After getting everything clarified, he left, and I brought my daughter inside. I was white-faced, bringing her into the living room.
"Alex ..." there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 5, 2015 23:06:37 GMT -5
I stretched, slouching in the couch. I found these shows really dumb but there was nothing else on and we were just enjoying each other's company. I got curious when he went to go answer the door, but I let him have his space and just kept watching the television. I yawned, resting my head on my hand, almost falling asleep. Without his company this show was even harder to swallow.
Alex ... I blinked, looking over at him. I saw a little girl with him and I had a puzzled expression on my face. "Who's that." I pointed at her, baffled. "Did you have a sister or something you never told me about?" I cocked my head.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 5, 2015 23:09:06 GMT -5
michael Who's that? Did you have a sister or something you never told me about? "Shut up, you dumba-" I cut myself off, glancing back at Haylee. "Be quiet. You know I don't have siblings." I paused, gulping before moving a hand to rest it on the back of her dark head. "Alex, this is going to be weird, but you have to trust me, I didn't know about this."
I scratched my head with my other hand. "This is Haylee. Haylee Leigh ... she's my daughter." there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 5, 2015 23:22:42 GMT -5
I snorted. "Well.. You could have just met her n-" She's my daughter. I opened my mouth to say something. I shut it. I feared I'd say the wrong thing. My gaze was a bit blank, though that wasn't unusual for someone like me. I looked at the little girl, then back at Michael, then at the floor. I blinked, looking back up and moving slowly off the couch.
Nope. This was too much for me to process right now. I'd already been dealing with backlash from my old man. I was totally not ready to hear this. I stared ahead and walked past Michael, heading for the door.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 5, 2015 23:34:19 GMT -5
michael I saw him move to say something, but he didn't say anything. I wanted him to speak. I feared his silence more than what his words would hold. I saw him move to get up, and I sighed. "Alex ..." He walked past me, and I held out a hand. I looked back at Haylee, kneeling on one knee. I rested a hand on her shoulder.
"I have to have some grown up talk. I'll show you your room, and then you stay there." I rushed to show her one of the spare rooms, closing the door behind me. I ran back to Alex, grabbing his wrist.
"Alex, I didn't know." there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 5, 2015 23:48:24 GMT -5
I grabbed the door knob when he grabbed my wrist. I turned my head slowly, once again showing a blankness in my stare. I didn't say anything again. What was there to say? I didn't want to speak, because saying anything now might make me say the wrong thing. But I couldn't just stare quietly. "I know." I made him know I was well aware I knew that he had no clue. I turned to look at the door. I stared at my hand on the knob, gripping it. "You can't expect me to play parent to your kid." I glanced back at him again. I know it seemed weird of me, when I had suggested adopting. But this girl knew of her mother, likely, and now she'd know of her father. It wasn't like getting a kid who had been left alone.
"I have no place there." I muttered. Maybe I was a bit bitter he didn't even know about something like this. It scared me. Maybe I was also scared there were things I didn't know about him. "Why'd you grab me?" I questioned. "I'm going home." I was being a little shit about this, but I needed to digest what was going on. I wasn't even in his position and this was already making my head spin.
"What do you expect me to say?" I blinked.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 5, 2015 23:56:46 GMT -5
michael I gave a frustrated noise, my brown eyes narrowing. You can't expect me to play parent to your kid. "She has no where else to go. Besides, you're the one who wanted to adopt." I argued, clenching my teeth.
I have no place there. Why'd you grab me? I'm going home. "No, you are not. You're going to keep your spiky little ass here and talk to me about this." I said, yanking him from the door. What do you expect me to say?
"I don't freaking know!" I said, throwing a hand up in exasperation. "I don't know. But, what about when we're married? Hm? She's going to stay. Her mother is dead. I'm the only family she has left. I'm not going to let her live in a life like I did where I hardly knew a thing about my parents. Alex, I need your help. We're going to be married, and you can't just go run away everytime you see her." there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 0:19:53 GMT -5
I staggered backwards when he pulled me away from the door. I turned around, facing him and I clenched a fist. "I'm leaving!" I said angrily. "I don't want to talk about this right now!" I pulled my wrist away from him. "This isn't any place for me! This is your problem, if you slept with her and got her pregnant! Maybe we shouldn't get married" Why was I even angry? Was this even anger? I turned around again, my back to him. My shoulders twitched as tears fell onto my cheeks and I sobbed violently. I covered my face with my hands. I hadn't fully cried like this since my dad had left my mother, and then when my mother had passed. I was baffled why I was crying. It should have been him crying, not me.
"I can't do it!" I shook my head. I dropped my hands and they fell to my side. I turned around slowly, looking down at my feet. I walked towards him and wrapped my arms around his waist, burying my face in his shirt. "Fine.." I muttered, gripping his shirt. "I'll help you." I gave up. I loved him. I really did want to marry him. This would just take some getting use to.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 0:26:25 GMT -5
michael I glared at him. "How was I supposed to know she would get pregnant!? I was sixteen! I was dumb enough to do it!" I yelled, glancing behind me. I really hoped Haylee hadn't heard me. I know that I would have just crushed her.
Maybe we shouldn't get married. My jaw dropped. For the first time in god knows how long, I felt like I was going to cry. "A-Alex ..." I stuttered, my chest aching. He was crying as well, and I didn't know what to do. Then, he hugged me, and I wiped away a tear from my face. Fine... I'll help you.
A sigh of relief came from me, my arms wrapping around his shoulders. "You really are an asshole." I leaned down, kissing his head. "I love you. Please, help me raise her. We can be great fathers." there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 1:05:43 GMT -5
"I know.. I am." I shrugged. "I'm sorry.. I acted like that." I tightened my grip on his shirt when he asked me to help raise his daughter. "I.." Part of me wanted to refuse. Because I was afraid. But I also didn't want to say no, because I cared too much about him. "I guess.." I mumbled, hugging him tighter. "Okay." I didn't want to hold resentment for him.
My face turned red. "I.. also didn't know you weren't.. you know.." I went on. "I-I didn't know you had done the thing with anyone.." I buried my face, covering it because I was embarrassed. "I-I haven't with anyone so I just assumed."
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 1:10:26 GMT -5
michael I shrugged, holding him close. "Thank you. You'll be a good father." I leaned down to kiss him.
"A virgin?" I scratched my head. "Well, I did mention that I had been with a few girls. I thought it was explained that I had at least done something with one. But, I really didn't know she was pregnant or had a baby." I smirked down at him. "Maybe we should fix that later." I whispered. there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 10:25:30 GMT -5
"M-Mm..." I nodded, not sure if I was able to agree completely with that. I gripped his shirt tightly while hugging him. When he kissed me my face went red. "Well.. I didn't assume that..!!" I nuzzled my face into his shirt. "I don't know if I can do it.." I muttered. I had no idea how to be a father. I hadn't exactly had one of the best role models to show me how. I wanted to walk away right now and close that door. But never seeing Michael's face again would hurt me way too much. I dropped my hands to my side and leaned my forehead onto his chest. "But I guess I can try." I mumbled blankly.
Maybe we should fix that later. I covered my face with my hands in embarrassment, nodding slowly.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 12:01:19 GMT -5
michael I sighed. "Maybe you're more innocent than I thought." I muttered to myself. "You can do it. I'll be here too. It's not like I'm asking you to raise her on your own. Just..." I paused, scratching my head again. "Treat her like you wanted to be treated by your father. Not like how he treated you."
I noticed him nod, and I chuckled. "When she's asleep, we can go have fun." I said slyly, tugging on his wrist. "C'mon. Let's talk to her. It's going to be odd for her to not only have a father, but have two." there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 21:18:43 GMT -5
"I-I already told you I've never done any of that..!" I looked down at my feet. He told me to treat her as I'd like my father to treat me. I'd always had fun imagining myself with a loving father. The daydream made me feel safe and secure. That is until I remembered my dad was an asshole. "O..kay." I nodded slowly. I blinked in puzzlement. When she's asleep, we can go have fun. "H-Huh!?" I felt him tug my wrist. "Wait.. Michael.. I.." He was bringing me to see her and as we walked for the room she was in I stared back at the door longingly to just run. I wanted to hide.
But I stayed for Michael's sake.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 21:32:43 GMT -5
michael I laughed, smirking. "We can. I promise." I said, winking. Wait... Michael... I glanced behind me. "Hmm?" I entered Haylee's room, which was my guest room. I smiled at her awkwardly, crouching beside her. "Hey, Haylee. I want you to meet someone really special to me." I looked back at Alex. "This is Alex. I know this is kind of weird, but he and I are going to get married. He'll be your father like me."
Haylee looked at Alex, a shy look on her face. "H-hello." there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 22:50:06 GMT -5
I let him bring me into the room but my gaze was a bit blank in worry. I found myself backing up and hiding behind the door while Michael introduced me. I peeked from the door and heard her say hello to me. I walked over hesitantly, hiding behind Michael, grabbing onto his shirt. "Umm.." I muttered. I looked at her, blinking. She does look like him.. It hurt a bit, because now I had real confirmation it was true he'd done that with a girl and been with someone before me. I didn't know how to handle this without even a slight bit of resentment.
"Hi..." I mumbled.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2015 22:59:29 GMT -5
michael I felt worried about how he was going to react. I felt him move behind me, his hands on my shirt. I gave his head a soft knock with mine, looking at him with soft brown eyes. It's okay. they told him. I looked back at Haylee. "Why don't we go out to eat tonight? We can talk all about what you like, and we can have some fun." I coudln't help but want to spoil the little girl. I looked back at Alex. "What do you say?"
She nodded. It all came down to Alex. there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 7, 2015 0:32:57 GMT -5
I rubbed my head and let go of his shirt, gabbing the bottom of my own instead. I wanted to cling on to Michael really bad. I heard him say he wanted to go to dinner. I looked down at my feet, nodding slowly. I wouldn't oppose. I knew very well I was being really selfish right now by acting like I was. But I was finding this hard to adapt to. Well it was still new to me.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 7, 2015 0:37:10 GMT -5
michael I grinned. "Great! We'll leave later." After we established a time, I helped set up the room for Haylee, making her bed and making sure she knew what channels and things she could entertain herself with. I ruffled Haylee's brown hair before turning to Alex, tugging on his arm to leave the room.
I brought him to my room, closing the door. I pulled him towards me, hugging him tightly. "You're a trooper." I murmured. there are two kinds of people in the world; those who look to the future, and those who look to the past. nette of gs
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Post by Deleted on Aug 7, 2015 0:46:24 GMT -5
His grin was enough for me to not regret my decision. I stood in the middle of the room awkwardly. My eyes followed Michael as he set everything up. I felt him tug my arm and I let him lead me. I staggered towards him and suddenly he was hugging me. Wide eyed, I looked down and wrapped my arms around his waist, hugging him back. "I'm sorry.." I muttered. "I might be a bit difficult.." I gripped his shirt like earlier, tightly.
"But I'm going to try.."
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